After 15 days of being sober, I can still remember day 1, very clearly. That is a good thing. I had a tough week last week and this week isn’t looking much better, from a stress perspective. But at least I’m facing it clear headed and hangover free. I went out to a friend’s surpriseContinue reading “Walking your own path – 15”
8 days.I have been 8 days without a drop.I have also joined a gym, worked out, intermittent fasted, went on a hike, laid in a hammock, got stuff done around my house, lost 3.4 lb, caught up on work items that were languishing, and made progress on a few projects since last week. I alsoContinue reading “8”
Today, there are many things I can’t do. For instance, I can’t fix my relationship with my mother. I can’t pay off all my bills today. I can’t seem to get motivated to do all the things that “must” be done around my house/yard. But there is one thing I can do. I get toContinue reading “Doing you what you can.”
All the people I have met that are or want to be sober talk about “the other” in their life. Some borrow the name “Wine Witch” from a popular “Quit Lit” book. Some call her by other names. I have heard her called “Booze Bitch,” “Champaign Cunt,” and even “Zelda.” I call mine ALA. TheContinue reading “Sobriety: Talking yourself out of it.”
Well, not exactly the end of the word… But definitely the end of who you used to be. As a chronic drinker, occasional binge drinker, or every-day morning-to-night drinker, the alcohol becomes a part of you. It is how your friends and family see you. It is how you see yourself. Sometimes, it becomes aContinue reading “Sobriety and finding a friend for the end of the world.”
Two weeks ago today, I was have a pretty rough day. I want to preface this post by saying that “Quit Lit” is amazing and inspiring – but sometimes it feels a little out of touch with my reality. I can relate to the successes and to their “pre-sobriety lives,” but you very infrequently hearContinue reading “Sobriety – Growth, Failure, Vulnerability, and a Milestone”
Goals: Trying to master going alcohol-free while not ruining my diet.
Effort status: Failing at one of those goals.
As a young person, drinking is an act of rebellion. As an adult, not drinking is. It’s your journey. Keep. Fucking. Going.
I have come to think of my journey to sobriety as a cycle. It is a terrible cycle. For a very long time, drinking moderately was well within reach. A little buzz, and I was fine. No big deal. Every once in a while, I would “go too hard” or “let the monster out,” asContinue reading “Day 70 – Sobriety and The Cycle of Change / Failure as a Function of Success”
Today I relearned a beautiful life lesson. As I stated previously, I fancy myself a suburban farmer. I have a very small garden and planted a few early spring plants, including kale. I worked the ground in preparation of the plants. I prepared the soil by tilling then adding fertilizer and mulching. I hardened theContinue reading “Day 69 – Sober(ish) and Life after trauma – Nourish what you want to grow.”