Day?? : Coffee, contemplations & contentment

I realize my life is like my favorite coffee cup.The outside is a little damaged and that damage is visible to others.I’m  not 100% sure how the damage occurred.It can’t realistically be returned to original condition. But that is okay.I don’t need to explain the damage to anyone, and I am allowed to still loveContinue reading “Day?? : Coffee, contemplations & contentment”

Day Who Knows: alcohol and love toxicity.

Alcohol and love can be toxic. When a person says, (but their actions say): I love you (as long as I’m pleased with you),I am affectionate and want you to feel loved (as long as I don’t feel slighted in any way or need to punish you for something I feel you’ve done wrong),Facts areContinue reading “Day Who Knows: alcohol and love toxicity.”

Day 70 – Sobriety and The Cycle of Change / Failure as a Function of Success

I have come to think of my journey to sobriety as a cycle. It is a terrible cycle. For a very long time, drinking moderately was well within reach.  A little buzz, and I was fine. No big deal. Every once in a while, I would “go too hard” or “let the monster out,” asContinue reading “Day 70 – Sobriety and The Cycle of Change / Failure as a Function of Success”

Day 69 – Sober(ish) and Life after trauma – Nourish what you want to grow.

Today I relearned a beautiful life lesson. As I stated previously, I fancy myself a suburban farmer. I have a very small garden and planted a few early spring plants, including kale. I worked the ground in preparation of the plants. I prepared the soil by tilling then adding fertilizer and mulching. I hardened theContinue reading “Day 69 – Sober(ish) and Life after trauma – Nourish what you want to grow.”

Day 60 – Sobriety and the courage to tell yourself the truth

Sobriety and this pandemic have a few things in common. They are both very isolating. They both invoke fear. They both create a new reality that is immediately uncomfortable. But, in these days of isolation and fear, I have felt a truth trying to come out. Sometimes you find the truth in totally unrelated placesContinue reading “Day 60 – Sobriety and the courage to tell yourself the truth”

Day 53 (Sort of) Sober: Hey… Sorry about last night.

I sent this text last Saturday morning to a friend I had been chatting via text on Friday night. I sent this text because… well, it was warranted. I had text some things that maybe needed to be said, but not in the way I said them or in the condition I was in whenContinue reading “Day 53 (Sort of) Sober: Hey… Sorry about last night.”

Day 25 – Finding reasons NOT to drink in a time that definitely calls for a drink.

Covid-19 is top of the news, as it should be. It is a scary time. I believe we are in a time of change. A paradigm shift, if you will. I believe what is happening now is going to change the way we look at the world and specifically the way Millennial’s interact with theirContinue reading “Day 25 – Finding reasons NOT to drink in a time that definitely calls for a drink.”

Day 21 – Getting Sober, Just in time for the end of the World.

As I congratulate myself on 21 days sober, and we embark on the end of the world as we know it, I ask myself – well, shit… why try to do this now? Isn’t the end of the world the absolute BEST time to live it up, get sauced, and throw caution to the wind?Continue reading “Day 21 – Getting Sober, Just in time for the end of the World.”

Day 18: Sobriety: What you do when no one is looking

This subject has been on my mind the past few days, I think because I have been by myself more than usual. Surprisingly, it has been easier not to drink when I am with someone who is drinking than it has been when I am alone. Maybe, this is because I said I will notContinue reading “Day 18: Sobriety: What you do when no one is looking”

Day 14 – Sobriety: Why Choose to be (stay) sober?

In the last year, I couldn’t make it one week without drinking. I would say “okay, one week (or two, or 5 days, or name your time frame) – no booze. If I can’t do that, then I must have a problem…” I can’t be the only person that has said this – made “deals”Continue reading “Day 14 – Sobriety: Why Choose to be (stay) sober?”